Conflicted Feelings

Whenever an opponent gains life, you may pay {2}, if you do, you lose life equal to the gained life
of your opponent.
Whenever you lose life, you may pay {2}, if you
do, target opponent gains life equal to the life
you lost this turn.
"I hate and I love. Why I do this, perhaps you ask.
I know not, but I feel it happening and I am tortured."